HADI i like you (:

Clock clock clock
Can you come online now?
I’m waiting desperately for you to come online.
Its your birthday.
But you didn tell me earlier.
I found out from nadia.
Whose sister is namira.
You avoiding me isit ?
Today I smiled at you in school like tons of times.
But you only smiled back like a few times.
Do you even like me ?
I highly doubt so.
I guess I had my hopes too high though.
I should have known.
I’m dumb so what can I do ?

During the upper sec games.
You walk over from my block to the block opposite my block.
I was sad okay.
Then after that,
I walked down to the canteen using the staircase that
You were using.
You only smiled once.

I was devastated.
I miss you badly.
Why cant you just come online right this instance ?

I know clock, you wont know how I actually feel.
I know you wont come to this pathetic blog of mine to waste your time
Reading post about a guy named clock.

I bet you don’t even know I nick-named you clock though.
Now I’m just anticipating your coming online on MSN.

Hopefully you would come online before I leave my house
For tuition.
And after tuition,
Hopefully I’ll see you online.
And can talk to you on MSN before I have to go and sleep.

Now I’m going to have to pack my bag.
I’m bored and tired.

Really miss you a lot clock.
I even have your picture in my phone you know.
You wont know.
I know.
I wanna buck up my courage and say
I like you a lot.
Seriously.
I know what you meant what you said to me last night.
You meant to say that
Now we’re just friends.
Most probably we’ll still be friends in the near future.
But no.
I don’t want to be just friends.
Okay.
Maybe I’m thinking too much.
There are lotsa lotsa other girls who are much prettier than me.
Not saying I’m pretty because I’m ugly.
And there are much cuter girls out there.
I can never truly be the one you really like.
I feel so inferior though.

And maliah,
Cheer up.
Don’t let THAT thing bother you so much.
Its hard to let go after some time.
But you would get over it sooner or later.
And always remember
I’m here for you
To help you in whatever I can.
But for THAT thing.
I cant ony give you advises and tips on how to solve it.
I cant really help.
I’m a outsider.
I wouldn know how you actually feel.
When these type of things happen,
Normally it’s the feelings in us that confuses our thinking.
And that’s why we must plan and think carefully before making a decision.
I’ll always stand by you.
And you can count on me for that (:

Got my report book today.
Happily.
I didn fail any subjects though :D

ENGLISH : C6
CHINESE : A2
MATHS : B3
SCIENCE : B4
GEOG : B3
LIT : B4
DNT : A1
ART : B3

Oh well.
Clock,
If you ever come to my blog,
Hopefully you would understand how I feel.

And I thought maybe I’m freaking you out.
Because I’m being nice.
If that’s the case why I feel your avoiding me,
Accept my apologies ?
SORRY clock.
Didn mean it at all.