as promised.

random pictures taken at random times,
dont mind me ayee.

khairul gone to sleep, no one to talk to.
hadi is ignoring me, not talking to me.
boyf is talking to me on the phone (: i love you baby.
maliah is sleeping.
syafiqah i think talking to boyf.
nadia is way at L.A
maria is sleeping.
aman is at DUBAI.
gwen is at AUS.
yen soon daddy is sleeping.

dangg, i'm bored
what to do.
today was tuition and more studying.
maths is getting harder and harder with the stupid algebra which i just cannot
get into my head.
dang, stupid stupid.
this monday going ice-skating with maria & her friends.
and tmr is going to help out with mommy's kids,
mom's a teacher, so have grad ceremony for the kids.
and this sunday going out with B to peninsula to go buy
red skinnies/white skinnies.
and maybe some t-shirts,
depending on how much i actually remember to bring along.
ahah.
201107<3

i'm talking to baby on the phonee.
i miss you baby.
loads.
tag oke B :)

celeste & afiqah behind me :]

me & maliahh.

maliah & mee , (:

azlin & me in ncc uniform.

me and nad, i love NADIAA <33

maliah&nadia&me (: love them both.

me & maliah darling, love MALIAHH <33

i wanna eat that baby !

on the phone with ms sheliaaa (:

we are in that cornerr.

can seee my & maria's reflection.

maria looks abit pregnant, HA,

i know we look cool, aha, perasaaan jerr.

it says FCUK you.

i simply love her to bits, my VANESSA CHUA.

it says VANESSA AND MEL <3

blog later.

shall blog later, after tuition.

bored

bored,
one word.
bored.
ugh, sickening.

i want to get my red skinnies.
i want my band t-shirt.
i want this.
i want that.
god.
i need a job.
i want a job.
i want a job that pays & i cn have fun.

stupid.
i wish i was 1 year older.
then cn have job.
dangg, i sound despo for job.
kae i am.
but without a job,
i can live.

danng.
bfie called me talked only 15 mins :(
haish.
so boring tau.
talking to khairul on msn.
dang, i'm bored shit.

hadi,
cheer up mans.
dont get emotional every other day.
life is much more meaningful if you lead it cheerfully.
like you did in the past.
whatever happened to happy hadi ?
dangg.
i think its your job.
it changed you.
you didn even want to talk to me.
ugh.

terminal 3

went to terminal 3, it rocks big time.
met vanessa at 11.15 + at white sands, then saw bernard kor kor.
then took 53 to terminal 3, then went to macs to eat lunch with vanessa, twinnie.
then sat next to some guys, one of them is darren, my kindergarden teacher's son.
ahaha, then said hi, and we crapped alot,
walked to terminal 3 then 2 then 1 then took the train back to 3.
the walk was kinda freaky because the corridors nobody&then quite quiet.
total it took 45 mins, and then went back to macs, to do some homework.
didn bother doing because we both couldn concentrate.
haha. and then we went up to the terminal 3's treetop walk.
no tree-top lah seyh.
dont know why there was such a name.
and then there i made 2 new friends.
Khairul and Daniel.
both 16,
from bartley sec and bedok north.
ahah.

then vanessa and i like giler alr,
played with the lift, and then walked here and there.
khai and daniel took the bus 24
and i took 53,
then thats all.

had a fun day with vanessa twinnie <3

quite happy tau,
then talked to maliah on the phonee.
i miss you maliahh.

funny how come you so nice to her,
but yet treat me like what like that.
seriously,
i still want you as a friend.
but i dont think you want me as one.
you should know,
how racist you cn be.
you dont like me because of what ?
i dont know.
maybe because of things i do.
someone told me to calm down.
i did, i did try.
i try so hard to be one of your friend.
i really tried.
why wont you just give me a fucking chance to be your friend.
when i asked about your life,
trying to sound as concerned as possible.
you treat me like crap.
i trusted you.
you said sorry to her, about how you treated her.
then me ?
am i not a human too ?
am i not a classmate of yours ?
right, reason being, she's malay, learns malay.
your type of people.
i'm not, because i try learning malay,and i'm chinese.
you group people too much girl.
seriously,
i dont care anymore.
if you get your friends to come maki me,
or get everyone from not friending me.
girl, i want you to know,
that friend dont friend thing,
is a thing of the past, and its a childish behavior.
girl, even without you,
i have friends who love me for who i am.
dont say i'm being despo for friends.
i have friends, i just want to try making friends with you.
get that fact straight and clear.
stop being biased and prejudiced.
i miss my old you, where is the old you ?
dangg, i feel better.

28 11 07

today is a cold and freaking bad day.
first thing woke up at 10,
and then chatted with boyf until he had to go offline.
and then went for tuition.
boyf said he would pick me up,
oh well, he ate late, and i left already,
so i dont blame him.
:)
tuition was uber boring, no one to look at, in the end look at this girl.
god please dont say i'm lesbo.
she's really pretty,
name's Eve.
and then she's sec 2 next year.

god, then i fell down, and caught a cold,
and boyf is out with his friends.
and he didn sms me back.
oh well.
he just smsed me back.

i'm bored.
i cant wait for gwen to come back.
so much stuff to do.
tmr is terminal studying with vanessa <33
and friday is escape theme park + tuition.
then sat is helping mum out at dont know where.
get to skip tuition & guitar lesson.

<3
i love you syg.

second post again.

this bag is officially so cute ! i wonder if they sell it in singapore, i would buy it :)

domokon or whatever his name is, is cute !

dirty dancing, looks cool tauu (:

i find this rather funny, the chickens are dancing ?

i should read this.

as i'm thinking about candy.
i'm thinking, would there be a doll.
which can be eaten ?
like her hair is those spagetti strips of candy.
and her eyeballs are sweet candyballs.
and her head is chocolate coating of strawberry lollipop.
her arms are detachable and are soft gummy.
and so is her body and legs.
practically,
like you buy a candy doll.
which you actually eat when you're hungry.
and you can buy more just in case if you're hungry.

melissa stop thinking about food !

funny whats with my stomach nowadays.
i eat so little because seeing food makes me sick.
but i'm hungry.
and then,
i saw agnes today !
my primary 1 school mate.
she's so tall now.
and like really pretty.
in tampines secondary.
agnes ng, gosh, i remember her with her 2 pony tails at the side of her head.
and she always got bullied because she was too nice and soft-hearted.
once she got into a fight, because this girl didn like her,
and she kept on crying and didn want to go to school.
but she seems so tough now !
i just remembered, how long i didn touch my battle-on-ing.
ahaa, what a word, i'm talking to myself on my blog again.
tmr i have tuition at simei, kent-ridge.

have to reach there by 11+ because it starts at 12.
i'm finding people to go peninsula with me because i need my red skinnies quick.
thursday is study with VANESSA, twinnie.
at terminal 3, 2 or 1
depending on where's available.
then friday got tuition again,
but going to escape with benedict&mun mun they all,
practically the 1/8 people.
because my class people dont seem too enthu, the chinese i meant,

1/7 is mostly malays so yeahs.
they cn be bit racist at times,
but who cares.
i love them still, even if they dont like me.
i consider them good friends but its not vice-versa.. haha, what a big joke.
i love maliah, azlin, syah, adli, aizat, nabil & lots more.
funny i just dont get along with the chinese of my class.
i rarely talk to them.
most is with the malays,
if not bin xiang, bryan and zhan rong.
the rest of my good friends,
in 1/8, 1/9, 1/6, 1/3, 1/4, and 1/1.
then the others is upper sec.
and other schools.

a very very big congratuation to.
xavier lum ( my di di ) , adk angkat .
for getting.
top 10% SG edusave scholarship!

you did well little boy!
okays, i'm being mean.
ahah.
xavier congrats !!
you smart kiddo.

HAPPY 1 WEEK SYG !

a happy 1 week anniversary sayang (:

today was super uber boring.
from now on i shall blog not paragraph-like, hard even for me to read.
woke up at 2, ahah, i know its late.
talking to myself at my own blog, funny bodoh.
and then good-girly, did my science worksheet.
so i can proudly stroke off,science worksheet not done DONE !
and then talked on msn with AMANDA darhling.
gosh, she's so sweet (:
anyway, we both were like finding jobs.
then found 4 and applied for them.
but till now since 2+, i haven received any reply.
sad, and boyf has been out the whole day at theme park.
:( i miss him.
and the whole day have been doing homework.
how good girl, HA, i'm bored to death.
the moment mommy came back, i started chattering to her until she got a headache.
sorry mommy.
then brother & daddy came home, started my chattering again,
daddy fell asleep while i was talking.
ahah.
then i saw my tickets (:
yeahs babe.
i'm going for mcr concert on 11 dec with gwen :)
got the moshing pit place.
ayee :]

finally boyf is online (:
missed him so badly.
talking to him on msn :DD

happy 1 week anni again b (:

10 dec is mom's bdae.
9 dec is gwen's arrival in singapore.
10 dec is brenda's chalet.
11 dec mcr concert !
11 dec go queue up early because the seats are first come first serve.

11 december, mcr concert <3

taggers

hey MELISSA IMPOSTER

right, you say i have no balls.
you quote that.
tell me why then.
what in the world did i do ?
break up with your friend irfan and i get hated by alot of people ?
right.
i dont mean to be rude or whatsoever,
at least,
if i do go warn people/give people advices ( like yours )
i would just state my name.
seriously,
it takes 1 ball-ess person to call another one.
you say you have balls,
but yet you dont dare state your name.
you're right,
i'm using this against you.
i dont see whats wrong in using it,
when you yourself is contradicting your statement.

i did break up with irfan,
no doubt aye.
i never once said, he broke up with me oke.
i dont blame him if he hates me,
nor would i hate other people if they hate me for breaking up with him.
maybe they hate me for bitching about others.
right, i dont care a whoop alright.
i bitch about others, as i used, BITCH, so i can say it in my blog.
they can find out for all i care,
and bitch about me too.
i dont initiate arguements.
come on.
i stayed out of his way,
i didn bitch about him FIRST.
he did FIRST.

everything is my fault aye.
i'm fine with it.
everything is my fault.
right on.
everybody says that.
i know that,
but funny, i dont seem to take it in.
call me a bitch, a slut, whatsoever.
i dont give a whoop.
seriously.
you can tell others,
what i blogged about you.
i dont care.
get irfan to come scold me,
i dont care.

i mean it.
tell others to come to my blog to spam me or talk to me.
fine with me.
leave your name if you even come here to scold me / give me advice.
that way, you wouldn be labelled by me as balless.
as you said.
you had balls and i dont.
right on.
have balls.
dont be known as nameless or anonymous.

thank you.
i tried being nice oke.
dont say i didn try.

start of homework

i'm going to start doing my homework.

1) geography ( done, but haven printed 9 pages )
2) english worksheet& compo ( not done )
3) literature worksheet (not done)
4) chinese worksheet & read a chinese book ( not done )
5) home economics worksheet ( not done, need textbook )
6) science worksheet on particulate model of matter ( not done )
7) maths thick thick worksheet ( not done )
8) maths worksheet 15.4 volumes&surface area of solids ( not done )
9) DNT holiday assignment ( not done )

okee, i know i'm a naughty girl who hasn even pretty much done her homework, but i swear, i'm starting tomorrow, 271107 (: hey, its our 1 week anniversary (:

happy 1 week baby !
thanks for understanding me
thanks for being there for me
thanks for taking my complaints
& lastly,
thanks for the memories we had together :]
i love you (:

short post once again, because i shall start on my homework soon.
people tag okee ?
:)

pool

met maria at 1, dickson drove me there again because brother was vye-passing there too. so dropped me at maria's main gate. and then went to tampines safra to play pool. quite crowded but luckily got pool table available. and then, we played 1 game then had some lunch - chips and lollies. ahah, a new stereotype of lunch, perfect. and then the guy at the counter, he looks thai and speaks like thai, god its so yucky.
i have nothing towards thai people, or people who look thai, but sheesh, he is ultra disgusting, and he kept looking at me, tried like, what, going near me and maria ? whatthementos lah. then i scolded him, and pointed the middle finger to him, maria agree ? he's awful. then after that we went to Tampines Mall to get **'s birthday present, he bought him a Billabong wallet, so expensive seyh. then went to terminal 3 with daddy and mommy, had fun taking pictures.

terminal 3 is cool, pretty cold, ahaha, why am i typing the same blogpost again, ahha, now is 10.43am and i'm meeting boyf at 12.30, yay (: and ohmygod, whatthementos ! i'm bored stiff !
and and and yesteday's pool was awesomee, maria we should go out more, next time to penin alright ? rawr. i neeed more skinnies, i should live next to penin, everyday go there buy huh. ahaha. i love syg <3

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gah, deleted a whole blog post, gahh. anyways, slept at 2.30 after talking to boyf && aisyah kak && ohmygod, you wont believe, afiq senior ! you know afiq senior ! ouhk, that reaction's kinda over-reacted. anyways, chatted with the 3 of them for quite a while and afiq added me. whee. okays, i'm being random again, but thats just me. and then woke up at 10 today, freaking early lah, mommy allowed me to skip guitar lesson today :) yay ! thanks mommy. and then we went to takashimaya to go shopping (: went to wisma atria and got a blue top, god, i love it. and then shopped around, had chit-chats with daddy and mommy, sort of a bonding time :D

and then i told mommy, i'm going to get red skinnies, she was like, what red ? then i showed her, god, she actually said okay ! (: yay ! i'm going to get mine soon :D maybe can ask maria or mardiana or gwen out to buy peninsula together :} and then can go out shopping for clothes and stuff. oh yeah, karkheng intro-ed me to a website, kinda cool i guess, might consider buying a cardigan there. website is, this website is so cool > candylicious ^^

down there got different types of apparel and stuff. its a online order-buy thing, please do go see it, who knows, you might want to get something from there ^^ anyways, trust is most impt tau. okay, i'm like some thingy. aha.

red red red, and then after eating lunch, went to sony ^^ and i finally got daddy to buy me a walkman thingy, 2GB, finally after i gave my ipod away. mwahaha. thanks daddy :) and and and, then we shopped more, wanted to get clothes but they didn have my size, saw this awesome tube dress, i could fit it but but but, bad news is, it was too extremly 15479483232 duper long, reached nearly my ankle -.-" isit me being short or the dress being too long ? i think its me, mwahha.
and then the dress was like, green, the tube was tight, very tight, the smallest size, but stupid lah, i wanted it so badly.. but yet its too long, ugh. stupid !, now have to find a new one again. ugh, stupid takes so much time.

boyf aint online :( i miss him seyh. now charging the walkman (: god, 8 hours before i cn use it. hurhurrgh. and tummy's growling again, why uh ? -.-" i want food lah okee. mom's buying back for me ^^ yay. and then after all that, came back home to change shoes then headed for tuition. here comes the most exciting part, okee, so called exciting.

this guy called weiyang ( names changed )

tried take advantage of my sis while she was drunk, ( no names ) and then he stalked her home, that damned mother-fucking pervert. he is 24 i think, short as me, 150+ i think, and then he is uber duper weird. he doesn hang around with people his own age, he hangs around with people my age, 13/14/15&16, tell me he is weird. the last time i saw him 1 year ago. when he came uninvitedly to my chalet -.-" i dont even know him, cousin did, but she only asked her FRIENDS to come, he so called say my cousin asked him to come, but she didn even know him at that point of time. she didn ask him to come either. thick skin lah seyh.
and and and, he so fucking yucky *shudders* yuck yuck yucky. and then after that i didn see him already, then this year i saw him again, at loyang point, following my sister around. i asked her, she know him ? she say just met only, and he kept following her around, fuck lah, you think what seyh, privacy man.
so i told him * sorta warned him not to touch my sister if not he'll get it. and then in a huff, i walked away, after that he tried looking for me, but i already went for tuition. so too bad, then after tuition, mommy came to pick me up. then just now, on my way to tuition, on the bus 358, i saw him boarding the bus, next stopp my stop already, then like i panicked and all, so i quickly alighted. god, i was so scared, about to like scream already lah, then alighted already, heard people calling my name.
fuck then i walked faster, so scared he saw me and followed me, because i was alone and he was with like 6 other guy friends, so yeahs.
i know its cowardly of me to hide from him when i see him, but sheesh, i'm being cautious for my own safety, considering he tried taking advantage of my sister, what would he do to me ? slap me ? hunt me down ? i know its a cowardly act to do, but what to do ? i'm a girl, he's a what, 24 year old guy, i'm only 13. who knows what he can do.
ugh, melissa, be brave, he cant do much to you.. i think. melissa melissa, why were you so rash to sya that to him at that time, i know he wont forget it one, imagine a 13 year old coming up to you, pointing her index finger at you and saying " dont you dare touch my sister, if not you watch out ." imagine a 13 year old doing that to a 24 year old, kinda ehm you'll be very very angry and will want to get her back dont you ?

but god, uhm. anyways, syg is online now (: yay ! then now talking to boyf (:
i love you <3

bored.

panic! at the disco, jon walker is hott (:

i want those striped pink-black stockies

hide away and run

pretty much artistic

cupcakes full of sweets

lollypop, this pic cute eyh.

a tragedy i know, sad tau.

this so speaks a thousand words

this is nicee, cool bread & egg.

new food i think, looks delicious (:

my darling kimchi because its so tasty !

donuts again, god, i want some !

donut ohmygod, so yummy-looking (:

paula deanda is super hot babe.

some days that i'm random, this happens && i haven started blogging, just came back from jogging with maliah, met her at 7 and " jogged " to the beach, with her sister, and then crapped alot on the way, dont you agree maliah ? aha, and then we became quite hyped up, and maliah walked in mud, mwahah, her shoes got wet, and everything was so funny, and then after that, me and malliah walked to loyang point to have our breakfast, yummy (: our goreri outing is awesome ! and i realised maliah is much taller than me AGAIN, and and and ,
we saw a squirrel !! it was so cutee !! and then after breakfast, maliah walked me home, half way & then she went home, after collecting her madrasah report book, its cool tau, religious class also got report book, and maliah got into a quite good class ^_^
congrats maliahh (:

rawr, i haven talked to boyf for 1 day already, starting to miss him :( anyways,
melissa, cheer up, look on the bright side, you can concentrate on blogging when boyf is offline :]
melissa is officially bored&random.

1st date with bfie.

met him downstairs at 1, but then he was late, so i waited for 15 mins, and finally he came, in a white skinny jeans and a silverstein black shirt, god, he looked so hot, syg, you hottie ! and then we headed for the beach, he held my hand, and we walked to the beach, freaking hot, was quite awkward because there was no topic to talk about. but then he opened up & so did i ^______^
he so freaking tall 1.7m i think, god, i'm only 1.5m lahh, then when i look at him, have to look upwards, and then yeahs, funny tau, we had lots of fun, laughing and all. then he bought drinks and i shared with him, and then i bought drinks and all, hahas, in the end, we walked to white sands and then we kept laughing, i dont know why, whenever i look at him, he'll say " yes ? " hahas, and i'll start laughing again. whatthementos !
and i asked him if he thinks i'm short, he says quite short for a girl my age. aper jerr ? then he blanjahh-ed me drinks from macs, thanks dear ! and then we sat at the bus interchange before i took 359 home, he kissed me goodbye first ^__^
mwahaha.
i love my syg <3

no nyaa ?

decided not to go for nyaa make up lessons because t-shirt aint dry, p.e shorts cant be found, i bet the teachers wont believe me, but thats that. funny why people read my blog yet dont tag huh ?
please tag after reading can :) i'm bored, currently typing this blog post at 7.33 am in the morning, meeting boyfie at 12 i think, we're going to the beach :] and then he's accompanying me to white sands to get some stuff, i need get some school stuff from popular, haha, my facebook babies look strong, so penat, later still got to go withdraw money first, and i have to wait until brother comes home, and then get my money from him, and then head to school bookshop to get my school stuff, before starting on my holiday homework, thankfully, there's only 7 subjects to do.

eating banana cake, its one of my favouritee :D no one's online, makes everything even boring-ier, what to do ? its only7.38 in the morning -.-" and saliha says i sound like a malay, do i ? i dont think so myself ^^ haha, the total cost of the stuff i need to buy, makes up to $125 tell me why secondary school is so expensive ? i dont know, but primary school one, at most $60+ ? secondary school is like twice the price eyh. whatthementos !

update of tuesday, 2 days ago.
went to mom's workplace to help her with the kid's graduation concert. woke up at a amazing 9 o' clock and then headed there, a walk of 25 minutes away from the busstop. and then met mom and the little kids, mom introduced me to her colleagues, some looked at me with disdain because i was wearing a tanktop + a pair of skinny jeans. -.-" i dont see anything wrong with it whadddddddd.
and then i met this crybaby, okays in inference to my previous post, i did say it takes one crybaby to call another one, so im one. this baby's name is Faith Nathania Tan, it sounds nice right her name, but then she cried every other minute, people touch her school bag, cry, and she goes wailing about anything, wails about she unable to open a packet of sweets, ohmygod, i was going to have a uber headache !
and then i met Chanel Si Ting, her dad's Holland-ese and her mom is Chinese, she look so cute ! i have her picture, its in the slide show, i think, because i'm too lazy to upload them one by one. look out for Chanel, i swear you would just simply want to eat her up because she looks so innocent and adorable ! her chinese was near to perfection and i was kinda quite biased against her :x you cant blame me, i like i love adorable kids like her, simply want to bring her home ^^
and then i met Crystal Xue Jing, her dad's Britain and her mom is Thai, cute combination, her eyes are uber big and glittery&&her hair, ohmygod ohmygos ohmygod, her hair is light brown , and its uber curly ! abit like mine when i was young, but she looks simply devine lah. and she likes to follow me around, so cute ! but too bad, she had to leave half-way, because she only attends half-day care.

and then the concert thingy was held at " grassroots club " somewhere near yio chu kang, god, so far, then the little kids ran around like crazy because they were excited, tough day for me, had to help mom the make-up stuff and hold some little kids, but pretty much alright. had to change their diapers for them, wahaha, it stinks real badly, but funny it felt squashy, melissa stop it, you're being disgusting.

enough of blogging for now, shall go get my school books now. tata <3 style="color: rgb(153, 0, 0);">i just came back from buying school books, freaking heavy and walked my way home, stupid brother doesn't want to give me my money, and how ? i only have like what $10+ when i'm supposed to have $60+, AMOS CHUA, you better not sleep yet, give me my money first okee.
wait why am i talking about money !? okee random, dickson just came over, asking me if i want to go have breakfast with them, dickson says i have to. yay ! i guess i'll have a good breakfast soon (: yay !.
bfie i love you <3
melissa chua is back from breakfast, and this post is uber long because i keep typing.
anyways, after breakfast, in which is like the 1st time in 184523065484876 years, brother brought me out. we had fun and laughed quite alot. and the car dickson drove in, cool siole, we blasted the musik so yeahs.
" you know i'm a hot hot shortie but you dont know me, back off from me oh !"
i absolutely dig this song. whoots !


this is what darryl messaged me ;
" you go beach, dont fall inside the sea eyh, if not the next time i go cruising, i will see you floating around and staring at me "

darryl, you are random. HAHA. anyways, after breakfast, brother & dickson drove me to school to get the school book stuff, then came home here. and here i am typing out this uber long long post for today ^__^
going to meet bfie soon, cant wait, first date we're going to the beach :) yay ! melissa stop blogging for now !

long post

dont want to turn out like some people, i shall blog from now on, almost everyday,
introducing facebook

This is Mekal ( our baby made by me -.-" )

This is Goreri ( my baby with Maliah )

This is Lisa ( my baby with him. )

this is Edena ( my own baby. )

Facebook is cool yo, tried it after NCC camp, because ms wong told ms shelia about it, guess it would be pretty fun (: and it is ! i like my babies, their cute aren't they.

" abt nadiah, 1/1 they say she very chio

den abt radiah, didnt hear as they talk in malay

den melissa

den irfan say

wad u all think abt her

den rahman say cry baby lah!

den after dat the corporal who talk abt the marching thing

'his name is hakim but he make us call him kimiko'

hakim say 'yah lah juz like her ex'

den look at irfan

haha

den irfan say yah loh "

i dont deny im a crybaby, but at least, come on, dont make everything sound as if its my fault alright, so what if im a crybaby ? FYI , its my own problem right, you think im some dumb freak who cries all day all night long ? no im not, i do cry more frequently compared to others, i dont deny that, but at least, do you have to mother-fucking say to all NCC boys ? you make it sound as if what ? you dumped me because i cried alot, but listen up, who did i cry for ? i cried because of you. okays hear that ? loud and clear ? so you have no ass of a business to call me that, tell me when you never ever cried, when you were given birth, didn you cry ? come on, i steered clear of your way, i never went into your way. IRFAN HAKIM you can go on, saying. whatever. FYI i dont care, i hate you to the coree. i wonder why i ever steaded with you, yucky. i regret seyh, eyyeeer !

facebook is awesome yeahs, had loads of fun on it, hugging people, feeding my babies. hahas.

i'm a facebook cadet.

video

NCC camp

NCC camp was slackish this time round, compared to the March camp. a total of 3 days 2 nights, it was a awesome blast.

DAY 1

changed into NCC number 4 which looks like the army uniform, then had foot drills and a test, the test was horrible, Jean checked the attire, nails and all, i think i've got a pretty rough mark, because all commands were given in bahasa melayu, i couldn understand. together with the footdrills test and the attire check, i've got 31/50, the lowest among the other part A, horrible yeahs. the highest was 48/50.

kerblakang pusing ~> turn 180 degrees from stop, going CHECK TLV BANG, and continue marching, last bang lands on right leg.

behenti ~> BANG BANG BANG, last bang lands on right leg.

tukalangka ~> tukalang, ka, BANG, lands on right leg, and then continue marching.

then lunch and dinner had curry chicken, for 2 days, oh god, totally so unappealing, yucky, practically didn eat at all, so yeah then had groaning and all, gastrics acted up on me. shit. then night time had night walk with Azlin and Mardiana and some sec 2 NCC guy, god it was scary, Azlin saw something, and i was crying all the time, it was freaking spooky, and i hate Ahmad, scared me and the rest by rolling out a fire-extinguisher and then jumping out from the staircase. i cried like shit seyh. night duty did with glen and benedict, went around with dumbo ( my elephant soft-toy ). until got paotohh-ed by kelly, she's in table tennis. act chi0 only. eeyhherr.

DAY 2

went for dragon boating, had to take care of the NCCians valuables because wrist was injured, then got sun-tanned, ankle, t-shirt and shorts have 2 skin tone, yucky. Syafiqah has 2 tones under her eyes, i bet zameerul would love it. HA, okays im being mean. SORRY ! wait, i cant be bothered typing anymore.

parents & its over.

are one fugging lot of people, they scold you for the damn well reasons they use to defend themselves with. they scold you because your friend is rude, they scold you because your friends are your friends, they are happy only when you have no friends. ugh fug fug.

its best we both take a break from each other. you and me are 2 very different individuals, you hate elmo, i love it so much, i like slanted photos, you hate them to the core. i like slanted fonts, you dont, i hate maple to the core, you love it so much. i wake up late and stuff. we're too different..
me and you, 2 different individuals, we cant be togther.
iem sorryy..


its over..

left-hander

whoot i'm a left-hander for the day, hahas, oh yeah, right-wrist is sprained, fug.
because skating that time fell down then it got swollen, so i cant skate in the mean time, cant go dragon boating, best of all, no need go shooting. i've got a MC for that, yo ! realised my posts are getting shorter and shorter, hmpmh. this thursday going for class outing ! then after that going to nabil's chalet. then friday going for nabil's chalet again. 2 days ? and then NCC camp ! i bet its going to be fun (: but then there's like freaking lotsa of things to pack. and i cant do much stuff, doctor says i have to rest my wrist moree, but no way ! i want my blog to live, even though its's not being tagged, ha, i dont caree.

today went out with, karkheng, michael, li xuan, laura, sofia, sophia and vanessa (: had lunch at KFC once again, its my common hangout spot already, then we walked around and stuff.. michael was being all disgusting and yeahs, yucky, oh karkheng spat at me and sophiaa, kheng arh, learn some dining etiquettes ! and then me and vanessa decided to pangseh the rest, in the end, we got pangsehh-ed -.-" in the end, laura messaged vanessa say " i tell you a secret, you got pang sehh-ed ! " hahas, its not a secret laura (:

who is bored ? MELISSA IS BORED !
toodles <3>

VICKNESH

(IN YOUR MEMORY ; VICKNESH SINGARAM

1994-2007

from 2000, you've been my friend, laughing along with me, making fun of people with me, you've been my good friend, since that first day of school, we've been friends, we had fun together, we made friends together, you were one of my first friends in primary school. 2004 i transferred, that 4 years of friendship, i would treasure them well, thanks for being there for me since the start of p1, thank you so much, i knew you since kindergarden, since kindergarden !? i still have your photo, i miss you vicknesh, may you return home to god where he will shower all his love on you. you are missed by all okays, dont worry (:

we drifted apart since then, 28 august 2004, i left coral and went to loyang, we still talked once in a while, till now 2007, we've not been that close as we were in primary school. i thank you again, for the wonderful fun times we shared.

VICKNESH,
may god be with you,
may god end all your sufferings,
may god make you happy and healthy,
wish you have a better afterlife from now on.

rest in peace,


121107

i'm sorry for all i've done,
i'm sorry for the troubles i've caused you in p1 when you stood up for me,
may you be a happy-go-lucky and cheerful person once again.

i cant stop crying, i cant believe you passed away, i just cant, you left without a word, i didn know until faiz told me, until syafiqah told me, i saw you 2 days ago, you were with your mom, and your sister i think, you said hi, i said hi back too, why didn you say bye to me at that time? you just celebrated deepavali, god, i'm so sorry. i want vicknesh back, but he's gone, gone forever, vicknesh. vicknesh please visit my blog, i have so much to tell you, but i didn treasure time, i took it for granted, i'm sorry. i just cant believe that you left without a word, i cant...

no matter what, it has become a fact that i cant change, no one can, i have to accept it, i must accept it, oh well, my memory will always have you.

what hurts the most

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don't bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I'm not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I'm ok
But that's not what gets me
What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin' to do
It's hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I'm doin' It
It's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I'm alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin' with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken
What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do
What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do
Not seeing that loving you
That's what I was trying to do
Ooohhh....

damn you battleon, because of you i cant bloody log in to play. and the whole day i have to be only on MSN, okays, wait, i sound pathetic. anyways, i'm freaking bored at this point of time, darryl has gone to sleep already, xavier is combating 10+ people on MSN, oh gosh, i wish i'm experiencing that now, because boredness can lead to crappyness. darryl promised to sing me a song tomorrow, darling you promised arhh. and karkheng is ignoring me too. okays, today is a bad day. the whole day listen to only one song - what hurts the most, rascal flatts.

it reminds me of my time with ryan, he always lsitened to this song too. but this time listening to me, makes me cry.. suddenyl feel so emotional, wth -.- ABCDEFGHIJKLMNOPQRSTUVWXYZ. i told you i'm random. dear blog, i'm sorry you're the one to take it crappyness, other than darryl, who has endured my crappyness for 2 days already. bleahs, back so hurts, sat in front of the computer screen for 1 full day already, 11 in the morning till now, and still counting. muahahas.

feel like sleeping but then.. nevermind, shall not sleep until i wish karkheng a happy bdae (:
bleahs, now shall go cook some food to feed my groaning tummy, hahas, haven eaten much from the whole day.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO OH KAR KHENG (:
wish you smile and be happy always <3
once again, happy birthday k0r ! you're one year older again !

seriously, mapling i know is fun, but then
your gf is on msn with you,
thanks for at least some time stopping to see if i did say anything.
i dont like smsing much,
my fingers hurts and i dont like it.
thats why i dont always reply you.
tell me, when my birthday ?
tell me, whats my favourite song ?
my birthday is 13 march.
my favourite song is no one by alicia keys.
tell me whats my favourite colour ?
its green, red, grey, white and blue.
in simple,
you dont really much know me that well.
take the initiative ?
i did.

sleepless nights

i'm bored, period. currently MSN-ing darryl darling (: last night slept at 3, today morning woke up at a bloody 11.30. curse you Nabil, didn have to call me so many times just to ask me go your chalet right, messaged me so many times somemore.. you dont want to sleep, other people wants to sleep one yeahs ? my little battleon account is growing, yayness ! jonathan kor arh, dont play maple lerh lahhs, boring lehhs, i want my sleep. anyways, go or not to go for Nabil's chalet ? feel like going but then lazy to go.

my life is very boring so i shall not update on stupid stuff like my little battleon, last night talked to maliah on the phone :D AMAN GUPTA , rude guy lah you, was about to install my web-cam just for you, then you had to bloody log off, hmpmh, you're on probation (: oh and, KHENG k0r k0r arhh, elmo has no asshole, i mean he does, but LIANGXIAN di di arhh, you'd better not touch my elmo wors, its my baby norr, dont touch big bird either, big bird's my wedding symbol (: hahas.

XAVIER di di arhh, dont worry, i'm taking your advice, hahas, go out will careful derhs, okays this is pure randomness. anyways, even is elmo and big bird has no asshole, i'm happy with them having no asshole, you 3 sick0s, both are my bao bei horrs, you guys dont try install assholes for them. hmpmh.

skipping lunch (: skipping breakfast (: darryl darling is asking me to go play maple with him, but i dont want. hahas, darryl darling, sorry today cant go out with you wors, iem too lazy to leave my house, hahas, feel like rolling about the house in my chair lehs. hmpmh, tomorrow got tuition already, i'm so sian to go, but for him, go bahhs.

listening to rascal flatts, what hurts the most, ohmygod, its so niceeeee (: thanks you so much KHENG k0r k0r ! mei mei love you. SPOMO ROCKS 333333333333333 TIMES. thanks BENEDICT ERZI for pei-ing me last night until 3, hahas, mommy so loves you <33

enough of thanking, darryl darling has officially gone to play maple, i hate maple.
okays, toodles <3
i love you !

a new beginning

a new monster appeared in my life (: and his name is teddymonster :D ahahs, and i shall call him that ! a new beginning, 9/11/07 <3 hm, that sounds kinda familiar, hey its the 9/11 bombing in US ! okays, that is very weird. anyways, last night tuition was alright, not as boring as i predicted. so yeah, kinda had fun in tuition, 18 people filled the class !? so quesy ! then i saw teddymonster (: i dont know why, but then he keep looking at me -.-" then my class bryan was sitting beside him, so i messaged bryan asking whats his name, then he mesaged back teddymonster's number -.-" i also never ask lohh.

hahas, then in the end, smsed teddymonster (: then ended up him being my teddymonster :D wheet :} he's caring, nice and all, i think he's reading my posts, ahhaas, then nevermind (:today was okays, tuition and stuff, i miss teddymonster :( he's currently lying on his bed, trying to sleep, yet being messaged by me. i know i'm mean. but gosh, is he one horny little monster. HAHAS. found someone like me ^^ , but only sometimes. hahas. tomorow going to bugis shopping with mommy and daddy ^^ i want to get my crayon blue skinnies babe !

anyways, i'm a successful class 2 dragon slayer (: yay !, haziq, beware, i'm catching up ! hahas, okays thats pure randomness, dont feel like blogging anymoree, shall go play my beloved battleon now ^^
toodles <3

the boredness

played battleon for the past 4 hours (: after going out with nabil && aizat, for 1 1/2 hour, i went off to meet daddy and mommy go compass point shopping (: bought only a black shorts -.-" because no more XS sizes for me already, darn, all shops only got M. so cant fit in. i so wanted that green shirt, hahas, but no small, ugh, MELISSA CHUA YOU SHOULD EAT MORE AND GROW FATTER ! but i dont wannt grow fatter.. i want to grow taller.. i'm vertically-challenged (: and i shall win :] hehehs (:

and then came home in a taxi -.-" bought too much stuff. mummy's nagging at me to go sleep. but i'm not sleepy at all, &&& tomorrow have to wake up early again -.-" ugh sick. i want to sleep in lah, but then there's loyang primary's traders day (: yay ! shall go bully my little juniors, alright, i'm not that evil. hahas. realised my blog's dying shit. hahas. might take it down lah, but then aiyah, nevermind :D

screwed blogger.

blogger is screwed.
HAPPY DEEPAVALI !!
to my indian friends (:

thanks for showing that bit of concern towards me,
thank you so much.
thank you oh so much,
i was crying when i said i miss you and
you said you dont know.
but i instantly stop crying once you
said you do care (:
and that i'm more than a friend.
that cheered me up.
i will be independant, i wont be dependant and stuff.
i know you go for independant girls.
so i want to be independant,
and so far, i am, just that sometimes, i break down and cry.
takecare of yourself yeahs (:


finally creamo came online, i talked to him for a short 20 minutes i guess, he was watching lost, some survival show, pardon me that i dont know whats it about, i rarely watch the tv, so yeahs, he says he's going to work already, hope he take cares of himself well, he's going to buy , " as i lay dying " the cd before going to work, hm.. i shall ask him what CDs he wants. hahas. before he went offline, he told me to take care of my health, and that he cares. at least he told me he cares, thats enough for me (: i literally smiled when he said that :]

hm, Jean came back again, and at 2 i have to meet Nabil and Aizat at the block opposite school, we're going to downtown east :D hahas, to check out the chalet availibility. 1/7 might be having a chalet (: that is if there is space. and after that i'm going to compass point ! hahas, mommy says they have nice tube dresses there, shall go there to check them out (: then after seeing the chalet stuff might book it or not, see the price first, Nabil's dad is paying first i think, then those who are going, bring an amount to pay Nabil's dad. a very very big thank you to Nabil's dad (:
THANK YOU ^^

fatal attraction

i'm fatally attracted to the elmo soft toy at " more at words ", its so cute, i swear i'm getting a elmo shirt one of this days, hahas, i'm running a fever, stupid fever, stupid flu. nevertheless, today is fun (: Jean appeared again, posing as me -.-" thats a rather lowdown thing to do, look for yourself.

7 Nov 07, 11:32 Jean: I'm tired lah watever

7 Nov 07, 11:31 melissa: Hey look at me guys i'm ahorndog and a horn*****.I am dumb.I dig my nose and i always eat the dirt.I yearn for sex

7 Nov 07, 11:30 Jean: horn dog

7 Nov 07, 11:30 Jean: xavier is a third party horn dong

i find it rather amusing, firstly, i never type with a capital letter at the start of any of my sentences, other than names. secondly,why continue spamming people when you say you are tired, yourself, rather contradicting yourself Jean. i dont know what else do you want, but a big thank you for letting me have something interesting to do rather than empty blogging about my boring little life.

its so obvious that you yourself posted that tag from supposedly " melissa " , i just came home, and i tag with my name in CAPITAL LETTERS. so yeahs, brush up on your eye skills, want to fake also fake properly can ? but i dont self-degrade myself, i have self-respect. and please, dont drag my friends in, please, have some bloody conscience or self-consciousness, they're just standing up for me, oh gosh, why am i saying all these to you ? you wont even bother or care, heartless thing.

FEVER AND FLU AND SORE THROAT
gosh i feel terrible, with the headaches and lower abdome pain, my hyper-ness is draining away day by day, day 2 of SICKKY is here, and then today went out with mich, kheng, and gilbert. it was freaking cold, and then we walked around and stuff, mich blanja-ed me a strawberry sundae, hahas, thanks mich! but most were eaten by kheng :D hahas, if i ate moree, confirm i'd have tummyache already lahh.

after that went to simei to pay tuition fees, its so like freaking expensive shit, $ 300 for 1 month + deposit, shithead people, increase the fee until so expensive. i'm boredd, period. tummy's groaning for food, i want food, i want food, i want food, i want pizza, i want hawaiian pizza !! gosh, i'm like some food monster, hahas, food food food !!

gosh, i haven talked to creamo for such a long time,
cried to sleep, :(
oh well, i should have expected this state of treatment, avoidancy,
long ago, too blind i guess, sorry i'm typing a emo post today,
i want to give up on him, but my heart doesn want to, i cry over him.
its me, my own stupidity, my own one-sided thing.
iusdbfiusbdfijbsubfun times of i miss you.
it all dont matter,
if you could talk to me,
comfort me,
that things would be alright,
that things are fine,
that you'll be there for me..
i miss you.
i need you.
i'm unclear if everything,
zilch goes on in my mind.
i wont put pressure on you,
take your time,
i'll be here waiting for you,
always :)
i love you.

time

is spent on reading a book named " my story ",first time so semangat in reading it, hahas, the story captures me straight, even those its a non-fiction book, which means a biography, its awesome. at a time span of 5 minutes i have to complete this post because there will be a scheduled outtage at 11a.m, frankly i DO NOT know what the heck is that.

eating cake makes time pass faster, why ? no idea, btw, i dont know how my geography teacher mrs tan found out about my past -.-" she said it was the sec 3s who told her about it, darn. how in the world did they find out ? i have zilch idea. perhaps the psychic thingy ? oh well, sec 3s are smart, in their own way, like they study A maths and all, i highly doubt i can do A maths, its hard, i can barely pass my maths, and the thriple science ? at most, i would do, is biology and psychics, dont know why, but i find both easier to understand, other than chemistry, oh well, wait another 2 years, and i'll knwo what i can do already :)

meeting karkheng, mich, sofia, sophia and fiona in 1/2 hour's time, whoot ! going to go eat lunch with them, then have to to go simei, to pay some bills, tuition fee i think. hahas, this sunday going to wild wild wet with brenda :D yay ! hahas, i miss that place, last went there was with my cousin, other than that, no one is willing to go with me.

tata <3

sun shinee

today woke up at a very *eye opening* 11 o' clock. its early for me, being a late waker, like as usual 2 or 3. then freshened up and met with benedict, my erzi / son :) he wore pink ! just like me :} hahas, call that telepathy !

and then walked to school with benny to meet mustaqim to get the NCC camp paper, inventory or something. came home 2 hours later, okay its a boring holiday life i lead, then slept again -.-" sleeping is a good way to spend time, hahas, and then came online here to chat and spend more e time :] kinda boring today, haikay said creamo was online just now, but in mine, he wasn, so he blocked me. yeahs. oh well.

what mattered most, wasn given at all, so the rest dont actually matter, i'm eff-ing running a fever here, and he didn even show concern, even as a friend. does other's concern matter that much even though he doesn care, i think they dont matter as much.

hope creamo ate his lunch and sleeps well for tonight, with his job going on and his studies still, oh well, i'm holding on to a small mini hope, or maybe no hope at all. wish he knew how much i cared, but he wont.

wish you knew how you mattered to me,
wish you knew how much your concern would matter to me,
even a " are you okay ? " would just bring smiles,
but you wont know,
i miss you,
i miss the old happy you,
not saying you changed but how you treat me,
is different.
dont like me, just say it, all truth hurts.
i can take it, its alright, just tell me.
a clear cut answer would do.
say you treat me more than just a friend,
that concludes 100+ possibilities.
i'm not psychic, i dont know what you really mean.
show some care or concern ?
even as a friend ?
as a best friend ?
oh well, i'm still here standing.

SPAMMERS ?

One reason of having a tagboard is to observe and realise how ignorant some people really are. (whoever you are out there.)
no offense, but i am so free now, i've decided to flame you. :D
Come on, if you really hate me that much come talk to me.
i'm sure we'll work things out. dun be a loser and sit behind the computer screen and insult me coz i wont know who or what hit me. it only goes to show how lifeless you are coz you have either.
1) no friends
2) no life
3) no brain
If you dun wan to see how bad my posts are.
you can 1) stop reading.
2) send an email to blogger.com to delete my blog
3) get a life.
No intention to be mean to whoever that is, but seriously, you criticize my blogging, you flame me on my board. Why in the world are you even looking at it?If you feel like you wanna flame me on my board somemore, wait! listen to me. i could give you a suggestion.Since you dun have a real life or whatsoever, you could get this.
The game of life.You could make believe and pretend you actually have a life in this game how cool is that. OH, and the last time i checked at amazon.com, it only goes for a cheap price of US $8.99. Woah. NOW you can spend your time learning how to have a life and less time wasted on torturing your eyes by looking at my blog.

copy and pasted from someone's blog.
goes to show how low spammers can get.

Hey Jean,
had you have your share of fun ? oh, play " the game of life " i did nothing to you, not even mentioning i even know you, i dont. so who gives you the right to come critise me ? so what if i did scold Sabrina ? i was standing up for Maria, as you said, you were standing up for Sabrina, but just now Sabrina already said sorry and said she'll not go dissing people off already, and who are you now to diss me ? your friend said sorry already, things are settled already, still not happy ?

So what if i had a ugly boyfriend, who in the world are you to critise someone of their looks ? who in the world are you to critise how other's choices ? look in the mirror, i'm sure you're not some drop-dead gorgeous girl, i'm not, i dont deny, but you ? you act as if you're some hot chick. you love someone not because of their looks, you love them because of their character and personality, from how you were saying stuff, i can infer you're some materialistic bitch okays. and guys dont like that, i'm giving you a piece of advice here, take it or leave it.

i'm fed-up with bitches like you, thinking the world of yourself, dont come bloody spamming my tag-board with your stupid dumb shit english when you dont know how to spell properly, not mentioning even how to make sentences properly. i bet you failed your english, badly. oh well, girl, go read more storybooks, they'll improve your english real loads. and oh, you're free to continue spamming my blog, if it seems fun to you, go ahead, more to come, i think you're going to be invisible to me and whoever that comes to my blog, i dont mind, life carries on as usual.

your tags dont mean anything, go ahead if you wish, i welcome you :)
and btw, your definitions of horndog does NOT make any sense at all, you see, with the word " horn " it means there's something to do with horn, but noo. and with the word " dog ", it means there's something to do with dog ?

" Jean: hi,im a total bitch .and i hold cum with my mouth all day long that at the end of the day the cum turns blue "

it doesn make much sense right ?
-.-"

tadaa <3

BEST FRIENDS

after reading someone's post, i decided to talk about it.
since it affected my blog as well, anonymous can read about it too :}

BESTFRIENDS
why do some of us have best friends and no matter what, after fights or quarrels, we'll still be best friends ? because we tolerate each other, we accept the flaws, we understand whats going through, we know whats the aftermath if we aint friends. bestfriends, in another word, soulmates, through time and experience, we learn to treasure one another, undertstand that even being best friends, it aint meaning the only friend.

so what if your best friend starts hanging out with someone new, the jealousy might arose but think about it slowly ans carefully, its your best friend's choice who she wants to hang out with, who the heck are you to tell her not to hang out with that new friend of hers ?

i read someone's blog, lets name her : Lily.( fake name )
Lily had 2 best friends, Polly and Zena.
One day Zena became close friends with Yana.
And Lily was angry at Yana for stealing away her best friend ; Zena.
Lily told Yana to apologise to her and Polly for stealing away Zena, Yana didn do so.
Lily then told Zena that if she wants them as friends again, she'd better hang out with Polly and her at school for 1 week to make up for it.

the typical quarrels, is oh so common, but we all learn from it.
i'm not trying to talk like a saint, everybody makes mistakes and i do too. but this type of best friend stealing scene, has happened to me more than once, and i did learn from it.

best friends, are friends who are there for you, who walks into your life when every body else is out. best friends will stay as best friends, one who you can share your troubles and thoughts with, without having to tell her, keep it a secret, because she knows it is a secret that only both of you share.

there's no such thing as best friend stealer, if you trust your best friend, you'll know, you'll never lose your best friend, its your best friend's choice to make more friends, she has her own life too. you cant control who she makes friends with, you cant control who she hangs out with.

this thing did happen to me too, earlier this year. me and maliah turned out to be bestest friends, she has her own friends too, whom i'm not too close with. i have my own friends whom she's not too close with too. but whenever either of us has troubles, we share it with one another too. the best friends stay together, in times of need, no matter what, best friends wont give up each other.quarrels are inevitable, but we learn and 5 minutes later, we are talking over stuff and laughing already. that is why, i love GORI :)

• i love maliah because she has been there for me no matter what, even though for some periods of time we do quarrel, i want to apologise for those times, MALIAH THANK YOU FOR BEING MY BESTIE !!
• i love syafiqah, nadia and maliah again because they have helped much in my complicated little life, offering those very good suggestions and advices, THANK YOU YOU 3 AWESOME BABES !!
• i love karkheng because he's my awesome god brother :) he has offered me comfort and words that calms me down and put a smile on my face always, THANK YOU SHITHEADD !! ( karkheng 's my shithead/ shittie )
• i love vanessa because she's my awesome twin and she's there for me when i need some comfort :) THANKS TWINNIE !

if i did miss anyone else's name, please tell me :)
BTW,
3 cheers for,
HADI, JORDAN , BENEDICT, MICHAEL, HE HAN, LIANG XIAN, SHIRLEY, HAIKAL, AZLIN, NABIL, TECK WEE, DANIAL EFFENDE, XAVIER, BRENDA, GWEN, AISYAH && ALL MY GOD FAMILY :)
thanks you guys all for being there for me; i love you guys :]]

xoxo ;
thats all for today <3