sad sad life i live

sad life i live.

i asked in a nice way.
" like me or not "
he asked me not to ask him that.

i'm like miserable okay ? i sound dramatic, but nevertheless, its the truth.
i mean things are just there, i asked friends, they told me different answers.
why cant someone just tell me what is going through his mind ?

i asked again.
" i dont know what i'm thinking. i dont know if you like me or not. i think you dont. its miserable, wanting to know something but yet no matter what, i wont know it. i dont like pressuring people to get answers. but yeah, i dont know what to do. i like you, you know it. i just want to know, if we could EVER be more than just friends. "
he told me.
" well,you see, i really dont know the situation right now,im saying that anything is possible, im not doubting it alright? yeah thats all "

oh well, i sort of got some answers from that ? anyone who can decipher what he really means in what he's telling me ? i guess i was being too straight in telling him huh ?

i asked him.
" was i too straight ? "
he said.
" not really "

i'm drove nuts. MELISSA IS A GONECASE. now i shall wait for that one day when he can tell me what is really going through his mind. oh well.
wish me luck yeahs ?

1. what i'm wishing now : for his answer to whether he likes me or not.
2. what i want now : him being happy and cheerful.
3. what i'm thinking now : he dont want to tell me anything because he dont know too.

he just went offline. oh well, hope he has sweet dreams and a smooth job :] hope he doesn tire and stress himself out.

anyways, yesterday, as i promised to this dead blog, i went to east coast, ate at JUMBO. they've got the best seafood ever ! seriously, and i think its halal too :] i think it is lah. maybe next time can go there to eat with friends :D

i forgot to take pictures of my delicious food ._. how dumb i know. then after that had a slow walk on the beach with daddy, mommy and brother :]] first family reunion in i think 2 months. brother gave me some money ._. hahas. i think he suddenly got conscious that i actually exist. and before we left the house to fetch daddy , he asked if i was in express and then took a picture of me. its weird -.-"

wanted to get some fresh fruits, i have absolutely no idea why there is only 1 fruit stall there, and it was unfortunately, closed.

then before i went there, i went to pasir ris park (: hahas. its a very fun place to go to. wanted to go roller blading but the shop was closed, in the end, double-biked with VANESSA :}}

got wet and cycled around in just socks -.- " VANESSA's sneakers got wet and sandy, mine was just wet. but yeah. its was FUN FUN FUN ! but yeah, sadly, mich didn come because it was too late.

today was boring !

woke up at 2. i know its late. but what do you expect from a lazy girl who just sleeps in whenever she can ? hahas. oh well. then watched some korean drama ^^ , i'm hooked onto it lah :] watched it a 458231790 times already :D but but but, funny, i just dont get sick of watching it over and over again.

i'm now hungry and i'm going to cook some food to satisfy my growling stomach :D

tata <3>

and yeah,

this SUNDAY is going to be fun :] going out to watch movie with ronald and maria ^^.

i'm going to match-make them lah :} ssh :xx its a secret !

hahas. and next sunday going to wild wild wet with cousin ^^ hahas. whoot !

planning to go ice-skating with VANESSA and the rest too :]

some day also planning to go watch movie with SYAFIQAH ; NADIA ; MALIAH

BRATZ ( the movie ) and go beaching after that :]]

i have a shoutout !

SITI SYAFIQAH ; NADIA NASIR AND MALIAH ZUBIR IS MUCH LOVED !!

YEAH, FEESORBETS'S BACK AGAIN :]]