2008

yo 2008 !
its going to come in a matter of a few hours !
& dear melissa is at downtown east, inside the lan shop.
using the poor computer which has to be typed fast.
ahaha, poor computer.
2008 yo,
i made a new friend today,
Joseph, ! (:
holy innocents high.
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ahaha, fuck it, shafiq is not in downtown yet,
& john is somewhere in downtown.
-.-
fuck it hard.
my last post for the year ! (:(:
fuck it.
WISH EVERYONE A HAPPY NEW YEAR !

whats with lifeeeeeeeeee

call me anything you want.
i'm shit for life.
i've done my DNT assignment already,
i've been doing my chinese homework.
prev 2 post, going to be edited.

pictures, finally !

BEHOLD my two pretty ladies, ! :P
the cousins ! :O
i was about to kiss casy's hands, ahaha.
east coast baby !
gwen & our grandaddy :D:D
Me & my granddaddy.
my grandaddy :)
we all look funny. whoohoo!
gwen's oreao cheesecake, awesome !
my delicious chocolate fudgeeeee :D:D
me & pretty gwen, those aunties are like posing too, ahaha.
we're the dramaaaaaa peoplee ! (:

update finally !

TRACKBACK, 21-25 dec.
21 december 2007

boring day, gwen went to sentosa for her photo shoot,
& when she came home, she looked like a little super tanned kid,
haha, & she complained of pain, so superlotion goes to the rescueee.
she went out for dinner with one of her friends,
& he did something that made her cry like fuck.
so yeah, that jerkassssss.

22 december 2007

gwen & i went to century square to get gwen's nails done AGAIN.
ahaha, then i went for guitar class & gwen went to meet up with iman, her good friend.
guitar class was shit, so much stuff i didn know how to play nor strum, teacher got frustrated with me :x
then went for tuition which was shit again, then came home & met gwen,
night time went out to eat eat eat :D:D
oh and HAPPY BIRTHDAY KELLY TAN.

23rd december 2007

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YENSOON !
then, gwen went to eat coast with Lisa, her best friend.
& then came home already, went to go eat at like 10+
went over to Tricia's house, because gwen needed to take her stuff back from her house.
then gwen met her friends, while i was supposed to go to benedict's house at 11
but in the end didn go because his dad was still awake, couldn go until 12.40+
by then too late already, so stayed home.
was sitting at the corridor for 45 minutes just waiting for benedict to call me, so that i could go over.
AHAHA.

24 december 2007

far out, my best days alive !
woke up at like, 1+
then talked on the phone with some guy asking about xiangli -.-
i dont even know this guy call Zachary, some sec 4 siglap sec guy.
then we went to century square & tampines mall.
shopped around, & gwen did her toe nails this time round,
then bought a wallet, a pair of long black tights, exchanged my espirit dress,
gwen bought a pair of shoes, a zinc bag, and alot more.
we did our neos, but sadly, they are MISSING.
shittttttttttt, $20 worth of neos GONE !?!?!
ugh, cant be bothered searching for them anyways.
then went to this japenese restaurant to eat with daddy & mummy & gwen.
then rushed home to get dressed & went for swimming.

awesome night ever.
made 3 new friends.
Shafiq, 22 years old, pretty old, very friendly.
John, 18 years old, lifeguard on duty yesterday night.
& Derrick, 20 years old i think, haha swimmers.

cold but fun, & then very creepy so yeah.
got teamed with syafiq to compete with gwen & john for some games.
such like ; horseriding, piggy backing, & alot more.
then had alot of fun, took some photos as well, but i look really crappy because i was wet.
AHAHA, best night far out, dang, melissa shut the hell up.
then gwen & i decided to go, so we 4 left together, gwen went to meet her friends &
i followed shafiq & john to central to eat when last minute gwen came along,
had alot of fun arguing who to pay, cos shafiq wanted to treat us all, but it was really awkward.
in the end, half half, wadakakaa.
oh yes, at tampines mall, saw sabila, said hi, she looked really pretty AS ALWAYS ! (:

then me & gwen went home,
after that came out again.
i met shafiq & john again,
& then gwen went to meet her friends to chill at McCafe.
no lights, no one around, and just the moonlight + the pool water sound.
shafiq was missing for a while, turns out he went to get some chocolates.
& he bought me a heart shaped box chocolate.
i was so surprised, THANK YOU SHAFIQ !
then we chilled under the moonlight & listened to music, while the 3 of us started chatting about people we know & all.
then finally had to go :(
john sent me down to the carpark & then gwen's friends sent us home.
AT 4+ in the morning, then helped gwen pack her luggage for her flight back home today.

awww, i'm so going to miss gwen :(
& shafiq says he's goinna teach me wakeboarding, ahaha, he's a surfer :D:D
how cool is that ! (:
after sending gwen at the airport, i'll prolly go to tanah merah to meet haikal.
we are going down to orchard, haha, to see the christmas deco or something.
golly i'm excited !

MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ALL !
& christmas this year is special because i celebrated it with 2 new awesome guy friends & gwen ! (: & not forgetting, the privellage to get to have the entire pool
to just the 4 of us, the FIRST TIMERS !
awesomelest awesome night & christmas, THANK YOU GUYS FOR MAKING IT SPECIAL !

HARI RAYA HAJI

hello people.
before i say anything,
SELAMAT HARI RAYA HAJI !

i'm super bored, can someone talk to me, on msn or on the phone ?
anythinggggg pleaseee.
yesterday went out with gwen after tuition to go visit granddaddy,
spent around 2 hours or so with him,
pictures in gwen's phone, will upload tonight or something.
he looks so frail, so weak, but i'm glad i actually went to go visit him with gwen.
i love my granddaddy ! (:

then we went to sheng siong to get some vitasoy for him, some biscuits, some orange peel to improve his appetite & some newspaper to keep him entertained.
then he ate & drank while me & gwen massaged his legs for him, more or less, then he looked very sleepy already.
so we left to go to orchard !(:
trained it to orchard, fully packed, then went to collect gwen's camera,
at sony's service thingy,
after that we walked around, then decided to go grab dinner to fill our tummyyyyyy.

saw this thing, ANGUS HOUSE.
decided to go there to check out the prices,
saw the menu " beef sirloin grilled steak..... $99 "
gwen was like " HOH SHIT !?! $99 fucking dollars !?! "
then we turned around & walked off,
went to coffee club after that, much cheaper.
both of us ordered ALFREDO, seriously yummy,
then a ice mocha & a muddy mudpie, i shall upload it later tonight.

walked around orchard road for a while then trained it back to pasir ris.
pretty awesome the streetlights.
came home & cooked mushroom soup ^^

thats all for this few days :)
happy belated birthday LIYANA !
& i cant wait for next year where i'll see the juniors !
haha, && thinking of that,
i haven finished my homework..
fuggggg !

slut

great, now people calls me a slut.
what did i ever do,
well,
ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
ROARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.
right, now i have a fucking bad reputation.
riggghhhtttttttttttttttttttttttt.
well i dont fucking care anymore.
i lead life the way i want it.
people doesn know whats happening here,
see whats on the stage & you critise me.
well, your rights, no can stop you.

what people see is the stage,
not behind scenes,
they can say what they like,
call me a slut, a bitch whatever,
i know i'm a bitch, but definitely not a slut.

"the pejorative words slut, harlot, whore describe a sexually promiscuous woman^{[citation needed]}. In great contrast to the glamour of rake for men, slut is unglamourous and also historically refers to an unhygienic woman who is personally dirty and unkempt."

well, you called me a sexually promiscuous girl, a slut, i understand i'm unglamourous,
but seriously, you dont know me, so shut up.
i dont deny, i am a very messy person, i dont keep things in place & my room's like a closet, but i'm so not a personally dirty & unkempt person, you so do not have rights to scold me that.

i'm sick of living like this where people critise me for everything i do, everything i do, people comment about it, like i've got absolutely no life, to do anything i want, no life to make my own decisions, it sucks big time.
i'm tired of people telling me everything i do is wrong, so tell me, what should i do & then people will be happy, kill myself & vanish from this world ?

melissa is lost, period, & i'm starting on homework already.

sunday

sunday was pretty okay, i'm re-blogging about it.
went out to east coast with gwen & cass, rollerbladed.
there was this guy called Nathaniel, i so called went to ask for his number.
& got pretty nervous, & first thing he messaged me was, what's the other girls number ?
meaning gwen, because cass didn talk much.
i got so fecking pissed then i cried really hard, & i screamed like mad on the rocks -.-
then gwen hugged me, i felt a lil better though.
then we played sand near the shore,
gwen says sand exfoiliates the skin, but i was thinking, definitely NOT singaporean sand, because it's filled with oil -.-
yucks.
then we went to macscafe.
we were all eating then decided to ask this guy's number, but he's attached, so no number.
then there was this guy called Farhan, asked for his number.
then started messaging, he was funny.
then all of a sudden he messaged " she's not into me la, so no use "
then gwen took the number & messaged him, saying to me, we both can be his friends.
that instant, no messages received from him already, HOH.
nevermind3, night time was worse.
was talking to varian,
then batt was flat, so i told him to call cass if he wanted company.
cass's cousin, she slept over last night.
any pictures, go to www.omgwenzilla.blogspot.com

then varian kept on telling me, over & over,
" melissa you're 56198465168431654897841 times uglier than gwen "
i was like, " vae, i know, dont have to keep reminding me "
then i was telling him about the whole day events.
then he was like " hoh, no wonder they didn want your number, or even talk to you, because you aint wearing a bikni, & cannot wear one "
that statement, he repeated over 8945165487 times.
was quite sad about it, imagine your best friend saying that to you, i know he is very straight-forward, i shouldn take it to heart. jokes are jokes, but just dont carry them too far.
he did, & he made me cry.
then like, after that, carian talked to cass already, he didn want to talk to me.
AT ALL.
& he says i'm like sensitive or so because he was just joking.
seriously, i can take jokes but not until it hurts me.
now he doesn want to talk to me at all,
just because when i was crying myself to sleep, he called me & i told him i didn want to talk to him.

& i practically cried myself to sleep last night.
HOH, no one knows,
then2 today i didn knwo what was with me ,
i kept on thinking about my best friend.
varian.
dang.
kept talking about him too, i think cass was pretty pissed with me, because varian only wants to talk to her.

enough blogging before i start crying again.
& i think i should get used to being rejected & ignored, pathetic i know.
& i havent done ANY of my homework.
tell me to start, someone, PLEASEEEEEEEEE.

east coast

fun yet sad.
rawr !

blogger & computer is screwed >.<

i dont know what happened to my poor baby, its screwing up, badly, i cant even install MSN again. daddy washed the computer >; & now i have nothing left in the computer, zilch, nada, zero, nothing,all my 500+ songs, my games, my photos, all gone, grrrr, rawr! & because this pathetic blog is so called closed, i can complain for all i care, rawr. i need something to eat seyh, i'm hungry like wuttttttt !

today's day was pretty much boring, i couldn go out because of guitar lessons in the early afternoon & tuition in the evening, which i just came back from, gwen was at home but she's going out for dinner with her friends now, oh well. i need MSN ! & someone please just message me, i'm simply dying from boredom, anw.

last night conference with khairul & danny, haha, both of them simply make me laugh oh so much, then danny had to hang up & so left me & khairul talking luhh, so funny, we finally put down because i wanted to go sleep.

someone pleaseeee rawr, i miss maliah :(

HAPPY 15TH BIRTHDAY MARIAAAAAAAAAAAAA <333
HAPPY 13TH BIRTHDAY KHAIRUL ANWAR <333

a guy

from the day i met you, i knew you, i knew i wouldn regret liking you.
i never regreted. i confessed to you, i know i'm a little on the rough side, but i'm like this, i'm straight forward, i guess thats the part that ruins my friendship with people, ruins relationships with people. i thought i had moved on without you, i thought me & you will just be friends, & we are, best friends, & i know it would stay this way, one way or another.
but the failed relationships that gone spoof after i thought i had been over you, made me even clearer in my thinking, i never got over you. i never once did, all these while, i lied to myself, thinking it would help in getting over you, but it didn, it never did.
i'm sorry to say, i have never gotten over you, its that thing that makes you, you, that attracts me to you.
i really dont want our friendship to be ruined just because of me, i'm sorry.

jealousy aint good.

quote from friend's blog.
if i were to rate my life,
i'll rate it 2/10 for the 10 to be the best.
first thing, my life's pretty crappy & all, my homework aint done, i just broke up with my boyf who loves me so much, i just felt like being alone for this particular time, i dont know why, my best friends in malaysia, count on it, i think i'm rather much a pathetic loser, i dont have much friends, or maybe say very close friends my age, if so if i do, its guys, they cant stand girls nagging & whining day and night, i'm such a girl, i whine & i complain.
should have started on my homework since the end of november, but after looking at the papers that i'm given, i push it back, and now what, i have less than 2 weeks to complete alot of homework, i really must start on my homework now, if not i'll really be such a loser. the start of sec 2 will be in 2008, which gives me less than 2 weeks to jumpstart my studies, i want to study well, i want to get good grades & get into a good class in sec 3. but why aint i studying now ? i really have absolutely no clue.
considering cousin's in town for 2 weeks & she's staying over at my house most of the time, well, its pretty okay, i have like 184513518416512 things to be jealous about, i know i shouldn be, but i'm a girl, a girl in her pre-teen age, i get jealous like super much. first thing, the attention everyone showers on her, i know its because she lives elsewhere not in singapore, but see the difference, i get really sensitive about it,
1) my grandpa actually told her to be careful & go home early & even asked if she'd eaten, while i was just beside there, like talking as if, its only her there, & when i go to see him on my own, he only says this, " i want to sleep ", the difference in attention-showering is there.
2) my other cousin, 28 years old, asked my cousin to go out clubbing with her, & go to lesbian clubs / whatsoever, me & cousin's age is only 1 year difference, i dont see whats with the big age-gap, 28 year old cousin treats me as if i'm 8 compared with this big sister who looks like 17, i do agreee, standing beside my cousin, i look like some little kid, because she dresses much older than how she actually is, but then what, i'm also your cousin okay, treat me as if what, ast least just ask if i wanna go out with you, as least just ask, you dont have to be biased until like that just because she looks older & slangs.
3) you're born singaporean, changing your citizenship wont make you a citizen who grew up there, its the difference in nationality, but acting like one, wont make you one, it'll only make you a banana, a yellow-skinned white flesh, get what i mean ?

i know its bad to bitch about others, my life's just crap, i've got no one to share anything with, i'm bad at friendships, i ruin mine easily, i'm bad at relationships too, i cant help it, i'm just this way, my lifes rated at 2/10, which is a utter disaster, i wish someone could just slap me & tell me to wake up, i dont know what to do anymore, i cry everynight, reminscing over all the mistakes i did, like breaking up wit my boyf, why did i do that ? i really dont know, the need for dependance ? i think it is, i think i should stay single for the rest of my mind, i procrastinate too much, i suck at making decisions, i should start 2008 anew, like do everything right.
my heart breaks, i dont know what to do with my life anymore, its in a mess, i cant stop crying, tears just keep flowing down. i'm tired of everything, i'm tired of being me, i'm tired of being melissa, that bitch who bitch about others, i want to be someone else, someone better.
why isit always i'm the one being concerned about others, why cant someone care for me, & when someone does care for me, i dont appreciate it, god, tell me i'm a bitch. the only one conforting me now is Aman, thank you alot bestie. i think i would prefer the confort of my beds, where i can keep crying my hearts out, going back to emo-ing again, whats with me !?
i want my life to be like 5/10, my pathetic losery life is rated 2/10, almost on the verge of breaking off, can i just die ?

MCR

MCR

woo !, came back from MCR like at 11 ?
went there at 5+ to meet patrick, got down the bus & like got nobody, i still thought we were very early.
then ate at BK before going to max pavillion there to queue up, turns out there was like super duper alot of people queuing up already, & i thought i was kiasu to go at 5 -.-"
then met patrick & he queued up with us, from 5.30 to 7.30 sit outside the max pavillion.
there were like $75, $85, $95 & the queue jumpers,
funny there were like 1984651684651 queue jumpers, some random guy said " whats the use of a queue jumper if there are lots of queue jumpers. "
i kinda agree, at 5.30 there was ALOT of queue jumpers already.
so like should be like, have a ticket to queue-jump the queue jumpers right ?
then went in and ran all the way to the front, was VERY squishy cos many people were pushing like shit.
skip the small details, some woman rubbed her boobs on my back, and some guy rubbed his chest on my back too, elbowed him in the stomach & then kicked him, HAHA.
then me & gwen got pushed to the front, was like in a very awkward position & there was condoms in the air ? like wtf.
then until 8.45 then the concert started off with Summer's Over, the opening band for MCR.
they were good, & then it got very very very packed with people.
push push push push to the front and i couldn breathe because i'm too short & i didn have much energy to push off people who pushed me.
gwen helped me quite alot because she got like 651894651651684516 times much strength than i did. so thanks gwen :)
then we got to the second front row in the middle, then this stupid fucking malay emo guy punched me in the boob, and i punched his chest really hard.
then he elbowed my face and stucked his face beside mine, usefulness of the head, whack people with it.
& so i did, bam, then he went missing until nearly the end of the concert, he touched my neck, & i thought it was gwen but it was him, gwen then put her arm around my neck & he actually pinched her.
fuck him la, knnccb, touched me and pinched gwen, fuck you.
then some other malay guy told him to get out because it was like molesting, then he was like " i drank "
fuck you, drink then fucking dont fuck your fucking way into the concert & fucking touch people you fuckingemofuckface.
& then there was this caucasian MCR hardcore fan, who tried to push her way in between me & this really tall caucasian guy.
i used the gate to push her way la, then she told me to fuck off & called me a bitch, HAHA, then i was like " KNN la !, fuck off man, go some fucking elsewhere ! "
then was was like " 1, 2, 3 push, i'll make a space for myself then !"
haha, i thought i couldn push her away but i did, so thank god!
& thanks to that caucasian tall tall guy who elbowed her in the chest :)
god i keep gushing about it !
it was pretty awesome & the music was great !
haha & until the end of the concert then i realised my jean's buckle came off & my jeans was about to drop already.
HAHA, but overall, MCR WAS AWESOME BEB !

& now to settle with the HAIKAL IMPOSTER.

hey idiot, when you tagged,
my haikal was out at clarke quee at the point you tagged.
there's no point in tagging using his name because what matters is i believe him.
& i know it aint him,
tagging using other's name is so cowardly.
you should get a life, & get some balls because you're such a balless asshole.
fuck off & please fucking state your name if you want to continue spamming or scolding me.
i'm fine with you scolding me bitch, i know i'm one.
but my friends love me still, so fuck off,
i dont know you & you have no fucking right to call me one.
it takes 1 bitch to call another a bitch.
so bitch, let me tell you something.
using his name to scold me, impostering him.
will lead you nowhere.
& 1 more thing.
impostering as haikal, & scolding me & saying you hate me,
wont ruin our relationship, thats for sure.
so you can forget about breaking me & haikal up.
because you'll fail terribly & miserably.
okays, clear ?
i really hope you'll read this & if you do, please tagg & say you read.
:)
if i know who you are, better fuck off from my life because you are so not welcome to be mine.
i love haikal & he loves me too.
so shut the fuck up & get your own life you faggot.

pictures from yesterday

me & my darling Si Ling, that cute little baby.
i think i look funny in this picture, haha.
a girl can never have too many shoes, i want those some day ayee :)
me & gwen's yellow pumps,
i didn know when she took it -.-"
pretty gwen, love her to bits.
me and gwen in the toilets of white sands, (: (:


gwen and me, she's frigging much taller than me >.<

happy 3 week darling !

pictures ;

i'm bored, & yesterday me and gwen bought this ring, that we both wear one the same finger, same design, same size.
haha, & brenda's chalet was fun, kaee i'm being an old lady gushing about the same old story again & again.
cheers to the sistership (:
13 years going on 14 & staying strong.
known gwen since i was born, played with her since i was young,
even if she's at Australia, she's exactly like my sister, but i dont have one.
we go shopping together, watch movies together & do what sisters would do.
she's the best sister-cousin i ever have.
GWEN ILOVEYOU to bits <3333333333333333

updatee !

SUNDAY

first thing i went to go fetch gwen at the airport at 8.
was like fugging excited so i got dressed at 6, which is freaking early.
then then left for the airport alone at 8, which i reached at 8.25
after that checked the arrival which said her flight was 9.30 instead.
so waited there until Jonathan & Johan came along.
then wait wait until Nicky, Kok Sin, & some other guy came along.
then saw gwen's aunty & uncle.
then after that gwen came out at 10.35 -.-"
a frigging dang long wait uh.
so then after that came home with gwen, god her accent so thick.
HAH, i mean it in a good way.
and then we came home & then walked to downtown east.
just me and gwen, alone, in the dark lanes -.-"
then after that, we walked home then we slept.
reached home about 12+ i think.
& boyf talked to gwen, ahah.

MONDAY

woke up at like 8 in the morning & went out at 9+,
went to white sands kopitiam to eat some egg & toast.
because gwen wanted singaporean style, so yeahs.
then after that we went to tampines mall to find a manicure & pedicure shop.
but none opens at 10+, if have need to have appoinment.
so finally found one at century square, 12 o'clock appt.
walked around & this thai guy whistled at gwen & she freaked out.
HAHAH, then came to this shop called " lovely land "
it sold elmos cookie monsters and bigbirds, ohmygod, so cute tau !
there were all 3 of them, like super squishy and rounded, sitting beside one another at the bottom of the display glass.
then after that met daddy mummy & brother.
ate at the soup restaurant with family ( inc. gwen )

then brother bought me and gwen slippers.
oh yeah & gwen's french manicure looks fake but its real, aha.
& then she bought alot of stuff.
after that took a taxi back with brother & then headed for tanah merah with gwen.
& then waited for uncle wilfred to pick us up then went into the chalet.
god it was frigging far in, & i didn bring swimming stuff so yeah, :(
sneaked into the jacuzzi though, only the legs if not i would get wet,
& then went bowling, pool-ing & arcad-ing.
saw a couple of guys which were quite good at pool and bowling, but funny, no girls.
then slacked around & skooter-ed the place with gwen.
made a new friend called Farhan,counter staff for the entertainment centre.
17 & just came from Bedok View Sec.
he had this really nice lip piercing, god i want one, but mom doesn allow.
& boyf doesn want me to, so yeahs.
i shall be a good girl & not pierce for now,
tomorrow's me and boyf's 3 weeks :)

just in case i cant blog tomorrow, because its finally MCR,
i might say this first,
happy 3 weeks anniversary kesayangan !
tmr meeting daddy & patrick at 2 at white sands to have lunch,
god i need to get some sleep now, i'm frigging tired.
i miss you syg, alot.

MCR YO !
hope can get alot of pictures yeahs.
AND i'm watching 881 now, at like 1.42 in the morning.
god, i wanna sleep.
& gwen's sleeping like a log now.
i should join her sometime soon.

first time in ages my phone was FULLY FLAT.
frigging ass laa !

love you guys all :)
881 is cool :D:D

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nothing much

about to blog, i like this sweet. " werther's original "
been on it since yesterday.
eyhh ! ability to blog is gone.
nothing interesting happends.
nothing stupid makes me laugh like shit.

today guitar class was a utter bore, i forgot everything in the past 5 months :x
doing FNB homework now.
& tuition was super boring as usual.
considering that, xavier was so super quiet.
rawrala.

then i started singing she bangs.
;xxxx.
i didn know i was singing loudly cos like everyone was quiet & all.
then suddenyl xavier whacked me -.-"
asking me to shut up cos i sing too loud.
haha.
then i'm WILMA.
and xavier is WILLY.
haha.

some people would know whats a willy.
go check.
haha.
and xavier's name.
WILLY
so you know willy hunged ?
haha, god i'm mean, making fun of someone's surname.
sorry people.

&& after that, i did my homework super fast !
& i slacked after that.
then then then.
walked home with boyf finally messaging me.
ugh i'm bored shitless.

i can do something :)

Maliah : My best friend, sweet adorable nice pretty little lady with a fluent taste of english.
Syafiqah : My good friend, pretty lady who is able to scold very well.
Nadia : My good friend, pretty babe whose a good bilingualist.
Nisaa : My classmate, very friendly and lovable english speaking girl.
1/7 classmates : horny, friendly, loud and laughable.
Shirley : My god-sister, cute and adorable tall darling.
1/6 people : nice, funny and very loud.
Nadia 1.1 : pretty pretty gorgeous girl.
Secondary 1s 2007, : great people to be with :) esp, those nice girls & guys i'm friends with, too much to list.
Benedict : My god-son, helpful little big boy.
1/8 people : all very nice & friendly.
Vanessa : My Twinnie , pretty babe.
Michael : My god-brother, handsome eurasian with good drumming skills.
He Han : My god-son, funny & horny guy with a little accent.
Darryl Lim : My god-brother, funny & obsessed with FOB.
1/9 people : great kind people :)
Boyf : my handsome, hott, cute little baby.

eeyeeer, too many people to list & say about them, shall continue day by day.
shall talk about my gans then (:

Yen Soon : god daddy
Kim Siew : god mummy

god brothers
jun an
han bin
chi sheng
jonathan
mervyn
gang jie
yan xiang
kar kheng
husni
aloysius
mustaqim
bernard
izzat
theophilus

god sisters
constance
felicia tin
felicia yam
wei min
denise
raudiah
sherry tang
cherilyn
amanda
susan
kiko
aisyah
latifah

godd, i've got nothing nothing to do.
sorry if it makes people angry,
i'm too bored.
RAWRALA

boringg tauu

boring, nothing to blog about,
stupid weather.
sickening laaa.

061207 :)

introducing, kate leong & nur hidayah, my 2 besties since p2.
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me and pretty hidayah, i love her loads :)
the 3 besties, 061207 :))
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me & pretty hidayah again, i look so funny !
that big spiderman in cineleisure mall.
THE AFTERMATH of messing food up :) we're monsters we know :]
our lunch, clockwise, hid's, kate's & lastly, mine. (BEFORE)
my muddy mudpie/ also my lunch :]

061207, god it was so fun out with my two besties.
last saw either of them in p4, which is 3 years ago, & now we finally met up, god it felt so good :)
took the train to orchard, met kate & hugged her. aha,
then waited for hidd & went to coffee club to eat lunch.
god, so expensivee laa. but we had fun,
pictures above are when we went to coffee club to eat lunch.
haha. & then we headed to watch a movie at cathay cineleisure.
watched ENCHANTED
gosh, it was hell funny.

talked about some cinderella called Chisele.
then she always sang something " i've been dreaming of a true love's kiss " or something like that.
it was hell funny, laughed so hard.
then she went into reality where she learnt what was true love,
instead of the fairytale love stories.
it was quite helpful too i guess.
& she made her own clothes using the curtains, i wanna learn too !

then after that we went to walk around the shops.
god, they sell the guy's boxer, spongebob one.
so cute tauu ! then saw the bikinis, gosh, so nice designs !
then after that went to starbucks at wisma atria.
then boyf called me, asking me about darryl.
god, speaking of darryl will make my blood boil.

speaking of darryl.
let me tell you the whole story.
darryl chia, is the one who i've been blogging about the past 3 posts.

you see, the relationship with darryl lasted only 4 days.
& after that, we didn talk, & all of a sudden.
he started messaging me.
telling me how incompatible we are.
telling me as though i want him back.
i have my boyf now, & i love him with all my heart, why in the world would i want him back!?
and anyways, he started calling me a bitch & a whore.
then he came to this very blog, to scold me & boyf.
i'm pretty much pissed la.
then this darryl chia, says want to fight.
who do you think you are darryl ?
you think i'm going to take your words seriously ?
you say you're in a gang, & say what, secret gang.
FYI, if the gang aint known by anyone, its not called a gang anymore.
you stupid or what ?
pleasee laa, use your brain can ?
you may be smart, studying at some good school.
but if you suck in personal matters.
i dont think you'll even make friends laa.
KB laa, dont act big fuck please.
no gang just say so, saying you're in one, or are one, doesn make you intimidating okays.
dont come butting into my life, when you're already out of it like
157819462626 years ago, you absolutely have no right to,
nevertheless even can butt into my life.
you're trying to ruin mine, ruin my relationship now.
well, i'm happy to tell you, i treat you like an ass, a brainless one.
& i'm very happy to tell you that, i will not,
WILL NOT allow you to ruin my life, or even come into & mess it all up.
never. so just fuck off from my life & disappear for good, i'll really thank you then.

god, i hope i wont have to blog about him anymore.
makes me feel like blasting his head off.

gaahh, period crams are horrible.
stupid girl thing laa.

some mushy stuff, haha read or not, you choose.
not for the weak-hearted oke :)

baby, how come i feel we're drifting apart ?
i dont want us to drift apart.
& thank you for giving in to me all the time.
i love you :)

late update

gosh.
kay i lost my ability to blog.
dang,
and tmr is day out with kate & hid darling :)
kay, i'm bored.
happy 1 month to nadia & qayyum :)

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• funny you are such a loser. LOSERR.
  

haha some ass.

"maybe its time i told you the truth and not to keep it from you anymore ,
look at me, who am i , and look at you ?
did it ever cross your mind that we were never compatible?
if no, then i'm telling you now, we weren made for each other at first ,
how could we even stead when i just knew you for 1 day?
its near to impossible , you should have known that,
& i was never close to you even during
the four days we were together,
i'm telling you now, i'm a gangster yes,
and you are the good girl type,
we could never have been together,
just ask yourself that, and i only steaded with you
for one reason, find that out by yourself,
call me a bastard, a fucker or whatever,
i dont care. i can only say one thing,
i'm sorry that i lied to you and treated you like a toy."

boy uh boy,
please laa, who begged me not to leave you huh ?
please laa, dont think the world's just you & yourself.
okays, i do admit, i once thought of the world as you.
i once thought i liked you so much.
and reason why i accepted your stead ?
the need for dependance.
call me desperate, whatever.
how could you call yourself a gangster mans.
come on, you dont hear on the streets,
" i'm a gangster "
do you ?
i have nothing towards gangsters.
dont call yourself one if you are.
i highly doubt you are one.
because you dont act like one, & you definitely are not fit to be one.
i shan't waste my time on you.
one word for you.
PATHETIC LOSER.
you act as if i want you back badly mans.
please.
be a guy & act like one.
call me a bitch & then block me.
ha, pathetic & balless.

really hope you would read this boy,
because you are sucha pathetic loser.

anw, yesterday was sucha blast, went out with maria, stephanie & terese.
and we ice-skated, quite a long while.
had our equal share of laughter & falls.
then saw this girl whose nipples could be seen.
so visibly, i saw it on accident, wasn on purpose.
then saw this other girl's pad.
because she wore white pants which got wet after some falls.
pictures mostly at maria's blog, because her mom took photos.
yeahs.

then slept once i came home,
boyf called 16 times and i had 5 smses.
mwaha, sorry peeps, i was sleeping.
then boyf called me at 11.45, which i woke up after sleeping at 7.
ahah, then slept at 2 again.
ate brother's famous amos cookies.
& brother's name is Amos, ahah.

kay enough blogging, i'm bored.
& i'm making sentences with michael using song titles.
FUN TAUU !
<3
mich just came back from NZ & AUZ.
dang, rich kid.
ahah.
WELCOME BACK NADIA :)

ice-skating + some news

god, why i look so white !? & thats maria with her uber white teeth.

god, my bones are like being crushed everytime i stand up,
my knees have bruises, my arms are swollen.
and i feel like some dying person.
someone kill me please.
and i just did my english compo :)
cheers.
i'm too lazy to update for once.
please visit.
www.metallicobber.blogspot.com
for more info about ice-skating.
and please do not refrain from laughing at the pictures.
ahaha.
btw
happy 2 weeks baby ! <3

ice-skating

will update further, my bones are breaking.

SUNDAYYY

today is absolutely great :)
went out with boyf to Peninsulaaa to get my jeans & MCR shirt :]
then there was a guy following us, HAH, & i thought he was stalking us :x
but he's boyf's sister's friend. aha, then tried XS size in the shops but i couldn fit :xx
S was just right, but not many shop carried that size, so quite depressed kan.
then bought a MCR t-shirt, god, i love it so much :)

there, my new t-shirt :)
and then and then, i finally FINALLY bought my red skinnies & white skinnies.
so i can strike them off my list now :)
then boyf, friend & i walked around,
made him go to fort canning park with me :xx
sorryy !
and and and then, we walked alot, then decided to take the train back.
B taught me some malay, which i found quite funny.
laughed so hard that i couldn say " press the bell "
so in the end i say " prek prek prek the ball "
-.-"
i know its like whatthementos laaa.
then he teach me say.
toilet bowl in the toilet. , " jamban dalam tandas "
i think, aha, sorry teacher.
then its like, " gigi " is teeth.
"kuku" means nails.
then the convo went like this.

Me : B, what is ear ?
Him : telinga or sth like that.
Me : then why is "with" said as deng-an instead of den -gan ?
Him : i dont know, but its deng-an, not den-gan oke ?
Me : then why we say " kawan aku "and not " aku kawan "
Him : because malay language is opposite of what we say in english.
Me : okays, what is mouth then ?
Him : i dont know.
Me : what is lips then ?
Him : i dont know laa, exams also dont ask this type of questions one.
Me : they should set a exam on basic stuff, then you all can tell me what is facial stuff & all.
Him : i will fail it.
Me : now you already fail your exams kan ? if not why ask you then you dont know.
Him : uh i got A2 for malay oke.
Me : * shuts up *

then we started talking about the malay language.
haha, then he took a lift up with me to send me home :)
thank you :]
and, start my countdown,

1 day to ice-skating with maria :)
2 days to 2 week anniversary :))
3 days to english tuition :(
4 days to meeting HIDAYAH & KATE :))
5 days to maths tuition :(
6 days to guitar & science tuition :)
7 days to gwen's arrival :))
8 days to brenda's chalet :)
9 days to MCR concert :))

and and yesterday was so dangg-ed tiring,
at the yio chu kang center,
take care of little kids, scream at them, had fun with Kristal.
Kristal's my new friend.
mom's collegue, Kimberly's younger sister.
same age as me, 13, but study in SACS.
she's cool :)

her picture will upload tmr or something, becausee blogger is lagging.
-.-"
i miss maliah loads.
i miss nadia loads too.
i miss syafiqahh too.