the broken heart

now i finally experienced how it
feels like to have broken heart.

when pieces of glass pierce thru.
it just hurts so much,
i wish i never knew.

but once knowing abit.
its better to know the rest.

and i know the rest is going to be more awful.

part 1 of the talk :
it was wrong to confess to HIM.

part 2 of the talk :
i scared someone.

part 3 of the talk :
avoiding.

seriously.
it hurts so badly.
i just cant stop crying.
i wish i took syaf and maliah's advice the other time.

to forget about someone and carry on with life.
but i just cant.
things have gone to a depth where i cant give up.

i'm so tired.
i cant breathe fucking normally.
wth is wrong with me.

WHATTHEHELL ISWRONGWITH ME !!
i hate myself.