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okays.
after blogging last night,
was smsing ryan.
he was at TM with his aunt.

dhen i went to bath.
4 th time in the entire day.

so yeah.
by 11+ , i'm done bathing.
and so he is too.

dhen he scold me seh.
say what he's tired of repeating things over and over again.
he talked as if i dont get tired too ?

i do.
but just that i feel.
relationships can only last long,
if you really care for your other partner.
i cared for him.
even if i'm really mad because he dont listen.
i still care.

but him ?
just because i'm this stubborn little dumb dumb.
he 's so called washing his hands off me.

is that what people call LOVE ?

and he ignored me for 6 hours straight.
he didn even say good night sweet dreams.
he only smsed that in the morning.

okay.
i'm happy he didn think that it wasn neecessary.
because it was.
i couldn sleep.
just because he didn say good night.
i slept.
just because i receive a good night ; sms at 5+

his impact on me.
is really great.

i really donnno what to do.
if when he just ignored me.
i couldn sleep.
imagine.
if we broke up.
i bet.
i'll cut myself and bleed to sleep/death.

yeah.
thats of how important he is to me.

tomorrow got maths sub.i'm not yet done with EVERYTHING in my maths file.DIE !

i can only use the computer until 12. dhen i go eat lunch. and i'll start on
my maths corrections.

its BORING.

and I"M SCARED OF LOSING RYAN.

AND AND AND THAT I'M SCARED HE WILL NOT CARE ME ANYMORE AND NOT PROTECT ME ):

I'M REALLY REALLY SCARED.

rains going to pour down soon.
i think later if got heavy rain.
i wanna go out and get wet.
i wanna be sick :D