sheesh..

what the FCUKK!

ryan's metabolism rate is like getting lower ?

crapp larhs.

i thought he was going to be alright today!

but but but?

he got the fever in the afternoon ;'(

sheesh.

is God making fun of me?

making me worry and scared ?

i keep having nightmares these few nights.

that ryan could get well and and " **** "

i also dont know why..

FCUKK

please let him get well soon !

rawr..

sobs sobs.

i just cant get him out of my mind..

i just cant !!

please please please let him get well soon and be healthy again !!!

please please please !!